This week I scrapped all my old blog posts about marketing, branding, and messaging and began to FOCUS on what exactly I am doing here outside of my day job, freelance marketing, and my home life.
After several attempt to update my website copy, what I noticed was something interesting. . . and uncomfortable. Every time I began recreating my home page, I ended up with NOT a home page, but what read like another journey into another blog topic.
Even though I know how to help someone else with branding and messaging, I was trying to cut the back of my own hair--I just couldn't see it from the right vantage point to do it properly for myself. I felt foolish and like a fraud.
Sometimes we feel like a fraud, not because we aren't capable, but because we know deep-down we aren't being true to ourselves.
This was the case here, for me. Since I was determined to throw some mud--I mean publish something--I finally slapped something up and went to bed.
Mornings are good for clarity. I woke up with a raging, "hell no, I'm not saying that! I don't want to talk about that and I don't want to offer that!
Again, I felt foolish that I had wasted all my time the night before desperate to publish. But, was it a waste? The negative thoughts and feelings stopped when I realized that this time, instead of going months trying to fit myself into a square hole, I discovered clarity within 12 hours time; a new record. Something to celebrate, truly!
"I just want to write. I just want to write," I kept repeating my myself.
Another voice responded, "So why not just write?" Why does it have to be more complicated? Why is what I am currently doing not enough?
Instead of looking for more, I began allowing my work here to be light, liberating, and enjoyable.
The new name for the blog, The Course, was inspired from a song I love by singer/songwriter, Ayla Nereo. You can listen here.
What is the course of life? Where does sustenance come from, and where does it go? And how do we harness, partner with, this power to do our best work in the world?
These are the topics I plan to cover in this blog. It feels organic and authentic because this is what's on my mind each day. It's just who I am.
I am not telling you this to explain myself. I am telling you so that if you are experiencing the same situation you give yourself permission to just let your work be as easy and free as it can be, especially if you already have a full plate of other commitments and responsibilities. Don't worry, there will still be challenges ;-)
We owe it to ourselves to be gentle. There's enough "shoulds" and harshness in the world. Our soul's work has the ability to enliven and energize, if we let it.
I write about wellness, spirituality, psychology, and metaphysics so others have a home to explore these topics.